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XV
Nanginginig na kalamnan, nagsisibagsakang looban -
Ramdam ang laman sa putik, putik sa laman
Pabulong na tapang sa pagkapa sa dilim
Kasinungaliang minsan nang inalagaan
Pinakain, pinagyaman - pinagyabong sa kaalamang
Sa yakap ng dilim lahat ay magsingmukha na lamang

Nanatiling buhay sa kahapon ngunit bihag sa bukas
Sa loob ng rehas ginawa sa simula, paikot at palabas
Sa hudyat ng simula, mag sisipagkalasan pa kaya?
Tinanim na gusaling mistulang baluktot na kublihan
Sa aking naliligaw na daanan

A Couple of Things

XI. 

I feel helpless. 

It seems to me at this point that for the longest time, I was chasing goals. For the most part, I was meeting them - graduating, getting my license, getting into a career I liked, albeit with a few hiccups here and there. 

I feel like I really need to talk about what I am feeling. I'm studying right now, and part of that training is to be able to notice the distorted thinking of others, and how this thinking gets to affect how they behave. I know that one's experiences growing up can predispose them towards certain things, I do. For the most part in my training as a counselor, I felt that I was meeting them, you know? My goals, my work. I had a feeling that I was pretty okay doing this, that I was good and helping people out, you know? 

It's just hard. 

Golden

Ben and Ben, Maybe the Night 

It's been two years since I last logged in here. Truth be told, posting a blog post feels alien, unknown to me right now. I feel like I always say this, in all of my posts but it is what it is.

Then again, it has been a while. Two years, gddmt. I think there's a lot of things to catch up on, and I feel like I have a lot of things to tell as well.

Let's get started, shall we?

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